a guaranteed disaster will be hitting my days starting from tomorrow onwards until 27th of april '10. now i'm almost at the end of the term so there's nothing scarier than exams. i'll be on my final year next july and I MUST obtain good results this time.
i personally feel i'm quite motivated during this study week as library has been my port approximately for 5 days out of 7, compared to last three semesters which I didnt even step in the fifth-floored-building, not for once.
unfortunately, I think this is the first time (as far as I remember) I really feel insecure. I didnt get what I've learned, I failed to understand and I had this short-term memory loss. I forget my notes the next minute after reading them, and this is the saddest part of all. dulu pun bukannya pandai dapat 4flat segala, but at least boleh tulis something kat answer sheets tuh. but this time around, I feel different, totally different.
I told my friend about my case and she said this " hmmm. ada problem lain ke, dengan orang/kawan?". i said " problem tu sentiasa je ada, ada je benda yang boleh buat hilang mood semua, but I guess its still under-control."
anyhow, i'll try my best to get rid of any disturbance, any negative feelings and also any distractions near me. Dear Almighty, I've always believed U are the only ONE that gives me ups and downs, happiness and cry, ways and obstacles. and U are also the only ONE who can feel and understand me, as what I feel is UR gift. therefore, as UR slave, I'm praying for UR lights to brighten up shadowed path in front of me. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku dan keluargaku. Ameen. :)
shafura onn. 10.04 pm, 11/4/10. ukm,bangi.
come on puraaaaaa. chaiyok!
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