Friday, October 29, 2010

I dont love you.

While writing this, I'm reminiscing something I used to have drugs on - MCR's I dont love you. Everyone knew this song when I was in matrix. It accompanied me when I ironed my clothes, it was the main song people sang in the toilets and those who didnt have it in their cell phones were geeks.

After few years of abandoning the group as well as their masterpieces, a line of this song's lyric popped out of nowhere. Nevertheless, it suits well with my current feelings towards my crush. " I dont love you like I did yesterday " makes sense after 36 months. I dont find him adoringly any longer. And my reverence of him seems to be fading away, I guess.

No, nothing serious has happened. We still communicate like we used to, but, the feeling is just disappearing. People say "if u love a person, u tend to be acceptive of his/her strengths and weaknesses as love is all about completing each other". But I just cant develop this for him, at least not for now. Therefore, I believe he's not for me. Coz I know, if love is on my way, I'll have someone I'll be head over heels with he himself for real.

So yeah, thats how it goes. For now. ;P

I'm fucking addicted to Grenade by Bruno Mars. Omg! Its effing good! Why not u guys hear it? I bet u'll be on my side. ;) oh One more thing, KHJ-Hwangbo in "We got married" is freaking awesome! and yes, he's still one of my antibiotics. :D

Guten nacht people. :)

Shafura Onn. 0134. 301010. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM, Bangi.

Sunday, October 24, 2010


OMG !!!

Actually its not that very high-pitch of ur voice. Slow it down. Haaaa. Thats better. :P

Ok now I cant stop screaming! OMG! He's a smoker! Waaaaaaaaa :'(

Yes, he's a smoker by now. Cant believe this is true. Hope his confession was a dream. Ahh.

I got ur dont-get-it face. Yes, I know. Whats wrong if he smokes? It doesnt make him bad and notorious? A far cry. But still, I prefer the old him. He wasnt a fan of cigarettes when I knew him few years back. Thats why I'm shocked and yes, a bit disappointed when the truth was revealed. I wish I didnt ask him at all. What to do, curiosity kills. Ok, at least not u, but me? Definitely a nodding head.

Notes calling. Tc people.

Shafura Onn. 0000. 251010. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM Bangi.

Friday, October 22, 2010

its the time of the month

Dear Almighty,

I know I'm far from You. I'm aware that I'm only looking for You when I'm in trouble or when I need of something. I'm Your slave but I dont look like one, am I?

Only You know how I feel. All that I'm encountering right now is Your gift. And I'm very much grateful for that. Coz I believe, its a test for me, so that I wont stray far from u.

Therefore, I'm seeking for Your bless and sympathy to detach this feeling away. I'm intensely confused. And I couldnt hold it any longer. I thought I'm strong, but I'm not.

Ya Allah, Kau yang memberi dan Kau juga yang mengambilnya sekiranya itu mahuMu. Ambillah kembali perasaan sedih ini. Amin.

Shafura Onn. 231010. 0135. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM Bangi.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Ohoyyy Redang!

Hola people!

Seems like I’ve forgotten this freedom-of-speech medium for quite some time. Oh yes, I’m super duper busy like always. Assignments are piling a hell up like they never exist before and final exams are only about a fortnight away. Like adding salt to the wound, I have no study week at all for this term! Isn’t it crazy? Gosh.

Despite the recent upside-down days I’ve got to go thru, I was still able to have some days with my pen off my hands. Last weekend, actually from Thursday-Sunday (300910-031010), I went to Terengganu’s Redang Island for a quick yet sweet holiday for I guess, this year. Along with the family of pestakonvo 37, I had successfully skipped from the hustle and bustle of the city (and my uni as well) to enjoy snorkeling and be friends with the corals. Oh naaa. I got injured as my feet hit onto the corals coz the depth of the sea water decreased as u moved nearer to the edge of the sea. So the corals get higher and since my legs are quite long, I couldn’t see far behind. And yes, I hit one of them, got some bleeding and bruises. Luckily it wasn’t serious and I can see it recovering, after taking some medicines of course.

The island was soooo beautiful. Omg. The sea water was awesome, the chalet was convenience, the cuisines were mouth-watering, the people were friendly enough. Oh man, what else can I ask for? :D

Since pictures tell a thousand words, I let them do the talking. :)

--> seawater

--> pestakonvo 37 crew

--> fab 4. ;P

thats all for now. Toodles!

Shafura Onn. 1929. 081010. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM Bangi.