R, RM & BM

Lama dah tak tengok kau on field. Seriously R, aku nak sangat tengok kau lawan BM kames ni. Tapi macam tak dapat je, sebab kawan aku teringat yang dia ada hal. Memang tak ah kalau aku kena turun mamak sorang-sorang pukul 2-3 pagi. Agak-agak aku terlebih berani nanti, aku turun jugak kot. ;) kalau keberanian aku terbatas, full hope jelah yang boleh aku letak atas korang. All the best RM, may you succeed. With love, SO.




Kajang. 240412. 2009.

180412

It has been exactly a year tough without you.

Only He knows how much I miss you. Sorry for not being strong.

Its not that I'm hoping you to still be living, I'm just missing your existence and care.

I miss everything about you.

Too many things happened after you gone away. I stumbled lots of time.

Somehow, I feel like you're listening to me.

You were such a great man, I miss you.

You were a good cook, I miss your cooking.

You knew how to sew, you sewed my school badge.

You sent me to school when abah wasnt around, or when I had to be in school early.

You bought me all my fav. junk food.

You killed those frightening cockroaches.

You attended my report card day, met my teacher.

You educate me with your stories and life experiences.

All and all, most importantly, you gave me love, care and attention. I can feel it until now.


I'll remember you until my last breath.

Dear Allah The Almighty, please put my grandpa Haji Ibrahim Mohammed along the pious ones, with those you loved and blessed. Alfatihah.



SO. 180412. 0441. Kajang, Selangor.

Weak

Jujur, aku penat dan stress.

200212. It was a crystal-clear bad decision.

he didn’t understand, she partially did. I guess only He knows best.

I couldn’t focus any longer. I just want to end this now.

Everyone has self-limitation, I just reached mine.

Everyone has strength, I just broke mine.

Everyone has at least a little bit of patience, even this I lost.

It’s good to challenge yourself, but I have nothing left to beat.

I couldn’t stay, I don’t even want to.

I might tear their hearts, what else could I do?

Even if I didn’t do it now, I’m sure I’ll do it later. That’s even more evil, I’m just postponing my apology literally.

I couldn’t stay, I don’t want to.

I’m sorry, for at least, now.




SO. 110412. Rompin. 2129.

1146

Over-expecting. Nobody can ever provide your every need. When will I understand? I guess I never will. Coz I'm the one who is always, over-expecting.

Truth hurts and reality bites.

Sometimes salty, sometimes hot, most of the time bitter.

Too much spice?

I call it life.

I actually call it me.

I, again, failed to get the hang of you.





SO. 020412. 1245. Kajang, Selangor.

060312

Bukan taknak, tapi belum mampu. Dah cuba tapi tak berjaya. Bagaimana mereka melakukannya buat aku tertanya. Entah, mungkin aku belum kuat atau mereka yg terlalu hebat. Sungguh aku cemburu melihat kejayaan mereka.

Sabar menanti hari aku benar2 ikhlas, seperti mereka.





SO. 1955. Kajang, Selangor.

240212

So much in mind, couldnt even find a place to rest.

I wish I didnt know your past.

Its my fault, its my fault.

Making a relationship isnt hard, maintaining it is.

I've had enough.




SO. 2308. Home.

9 months

Exactly 9 months you left us for The Lord. There’s no word to describe how much I miss you that every time I think of you, I failed to control my tears. But I believe you’re happy there.


We’ll meet each other soon.


-Al-fatihah-




SO. 180112. 0105. Kajang, Selangor.