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A YEAR WITHOUT YOU IS LIKE A YEAR WITHOUT RAIN - SG.




p/s:-

1) Oh The Other Khairul. I'm totally in love with ur writing. Jom bercinta nak? ;)
2) Its 25th! Happy bday Abah! May Allah bless u. *hugs*


Shafuraa Onn. 0006. 250211. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM, Bangi.

Obstacle

Ya Allah, untuk aku yang mempunyai iman senipis kulit bawang, ujianMu kali ini benar-benar mengujiku. Aku lemah dan langsung tidak berdaya. Ya Allah, tabahkanlah dan redhakanlah hatiku. Ya Allah, temuikanlah aku dengan jalan penyelesaian kepada masalahku ini. Sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui apa yang berlaku dan apa yang aku rasakan. Dan Kau sebaik-baik tempat mengadu.


Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.



Shafuraa Onn. 150211. 2253. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM, Bangi.

Busy Bee

February might be a fabulous month for some people, but it is certainly a vice versa chronology of days for me. This is why :-


9th : Ichthyology Midsem Exam

10th: Animal Behaviour Midsem Exam

11th: Genetic Trip to Mardi Serdang

17th: Animal Behaviour Fieldwork

18th: Conservation of Genetic Resources Midsem Exam

19th: Genetic Trip to Kuala Gandah

21st: Analysis Stat Midsem Exam

24th: Animal Behaviour Fieldwork

25th: Ichthyology Fieldwork


And I have only March to do my thesis coz I ought to hand it over on April Fool. :(

I should be burning some midnight's oil later. Wish me luck people! :D




Shafuraa Onn. 080211. 2252. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM, Bangi.

Wondering why

Why oh why.

Case 1:
Lets say someone used to like you. But you dont like him/her and you just wanna befriend with that person. Then time flies by. Suddenly you came to know he/she is attached. Nak tak nak, terasa lah jugak. Why? Kita tak suka pun orang tu mula-mula. Then why jealous? If not, sad? Or maybe feeling uneasy?

I asked my sister. She said it is due to divided and limited attention. Initially, we were the apple of one's eyes and in a blink of time, that situation changes when that person has somebody else. Thats the reason why we feel waived. And maybe, thats about it.

Case 2:
You used to have a crush on someone. Then, the feeling is sort of fades away when you dont really see him/her any longer. But when you know someone else is getting closer to that person, you're feeling mad. Or unsatisfied. And once again, why this happens?

Question mark rises up on my head.



Shafuraa Onn. 040211. 2307. Bandar Baru UDA, Johor Bahru.

Cuti buat ape? tesis okeyh. :p

No. This isnt about my thesis. Title lies. :p Oh. I'm writing my drugs out. Here's how:

1. Taylor Swift's Back To December.
"So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smiles.
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I’d love you right
I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
So if the chain is in your door I understand."

2. Bruno Mars's Talking To The Moon.
"I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbours think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have.

Talking to the Moon
Try to get to you
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon."

3. Enrique Iglesias's Why Not Me
"Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall
My mind is running wild tryin hard not to fall
You told me that you love me but say I’m just a friend
My heart is broken up into pieces

Cos I know I’ll never free my soul
It’s trapped between true love and being alone
When my eyes are closed the greatest story told
I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Why oh why tell me why not me
Why oh why we were meant to be
Baby I know I could be all you need
Why oh why oh why

I wanna love you
If you only knew how much I love you
So why not me..."



Oh nooo. These songs above have nothing to do with my personal life. I just love the lyrics and the song beats. And for Taylor Swift, I'm not that into her. But I do think she's capable of putting her entire feelings into words exactly. And thats mesmerizing enough. Man, she's still young! :D



Shafuraa Onn. 040211. 0138. Bandar Baru UDA, Johor Bahru.

Not only human (naturally), school is also single-sex. HAHA :p

Single sex school is part of my early life and also one of the reasons I’m able to be in university right now. Not saying that it’s a guarantee for future success though, but, without education there, I don’t think I’d be growing up as a useful human.

SIGS – Sultan Ibrahim Girls School, Johor Bahru. The place I’ve so many memories about. Teachers, friends, seniors & juniors, sports day, assembly in a very hot hall, and on top of all, the prefectorial board I was in for four consecutive years.

Miss Bulwinder Kaur, the most unforgettable teacher I’ve ever had. She’s just hilarious and incredible! When she first entered my class, we students couldn’t understand her words coz she spoke so damn fast! And its surprising that she was able to maintain the perfect Malay language (she isn’t a Malay), and yes, she was my Form 5 teacher for that subject. I’ve never enjoyed learning BM in my life, but she has successfully changed that. An-hour-lesson seemed like only 10 minutes. And the best part was, we weren’t just studying it. But we could also see the beauty of our mother-tongue in an enjoyable way.

Seniors & juniors – Hoho. Some might have negative thoughts of all-girls and all-boys schools. I remembered a time when there was a proposal to government saying that single-sex-school should be banned as cases of wrong sexual orientation increased, which means people blamed this type of education centre for the introduction of gays and lesbians in the society. I’m not going to deny it, coz some of the justifications are right. But one thing I’m very sure about, the pros of having my kind of school are far greater than the cons. And sometimes, students get confused about their own identity and preference and I believe this as a part of growing up to know what you really are. What I’m seeing right now is, more and more of boyish girls in my school are returning straight. Rough appearance remains outside, and their inner self are still completely women basic instinct.

It has been sort of a ‘culture’ to the students of my school to write small cute notes to our seniors & juniors. I mean, we play favoritisms. Cute, popular ones would always be the apple of some eyes. They’d be given birthday presents, dedications, wishes, notes and much more. I don’t think this is harmful, and I see this as sisterhood. We left school, but our friendship remains alive. :D

Sports day is being held annually, usually at the beginning of a year. All kinds of practices are being done – marching, bands, cheering, decorations and what not. I was involved in the marching of prefect squad for three years if I’m not mistaken. All marching squads would follow the beats played by the bands. My school’s band is quite well-known in my district. Then cheerleaders. Their voices are hell loud! Coz in order to win, judges must hear the cheers. So just imagine how big a stadium is, and cheering girls of each house (blue, red, yellow, green) would be on the opposite from the grand stand where the judges would be in. And they could not stop yelling, shouting and cheering until the end of everything. Now you know why students of all-girls schools have men’s voices. ;)

I was the Vice Secretary of Prefectorial Board when I was in Form 3 and Vice President later when I was in Form 5. Though conducting assembly wasn’t something new for me back then, I’d still get stage fright in front of everybody, especially if it’s Monday. The principal would be there, sometimes the scripts were altered last minute, and if worst ever, the school song’s cd failed to play and we prefects couldn’t find a pianist. So before the assembly starts, we’d always check everything out. But sometimes, things did happen outside of our control, especially when it comes to electronic devices. And I was a Science-stream student, so how the hell did I ever know about wires and plugs?? HAHA. ;p

I’m thankful for everything I had, and I believe I’d not be where I am today without facing those experiences before. And on top of all, I’m extremely grateful that I was raised up in a single-sex school. Coz I’d never ever had to pretend, it makes me, ME. :D



Shafuraa Onn. 270111. 0013. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM, Bangi.

Pills

Its Wednesday, which means I’ve been taking Paracetamol for straight three days, Uphamol were taken on Monday & Tuesday, and I just took Soluble just now. I’m well aware that this isn’t good, but my head seems to be spinning few times. The pain didn’t last all day long, but it made me feel dizzy. Sometimes, one side of my head felt heavier than the other one. And some other time, the pain just rushed through all over my head.

I’ve never been diagnosed to be having migraine before, so I’m not sure if this is the starting point. But I hope it isn’t. I’ll be heading to Rompin this Friday with the lab crews, and I don’t wanna be a burden to anyone. Therefore, I’m praying to be healthy at least until the day I go back home, maybe on next Tuesday. The sampling would always be tiresome for everyone as many things to get done, and I’d be miserable if they have to take care of me if I got sick. So yeah, pills would go on the top list in things-to-bring for the trip this time around!

I just finished watching Personal Taste, a Korean drama series. It wasn’t too entertaining, but one thing I can be certain of, is that Korean story line, actor, and actress have never failed to amuse me how sweet they are. They are very passionate to each other; towards partners, parents, siblings or non-blood-ties humans. Though the story line might be something people created, I feel it is the culture of Koreans to portray affectionateness. And I do think this is a good example everyone should learn about. Love others and wars would no longer exist, just like the message in ’21 Guns’ by the Greenday.

Thats probably all for now. Need to finish up something else. Tc friends & haters. :D



Shafuraa Onn. 260111. Kolej Ungku Omar, UKM, Bangi.