I wish I could update more but I'm super duper terribly busy! seems like 24 hrs a day isnt enuf for me to update things around and hopefully by the end of June, my hectic life would meet its end. for the time being, I'm away from getting myself on the go as I'm enjoying my days off the pitch for about one week. in the middle of this month, I'll be traumatizing myself again, as my sampling will be done in Endau-Rompin Dipterocarp Forest. Wish me luck guys!

oh god, I cant wait for this coming Thursday! Legenda Budak Setan will be released and I'm gonna catch it out with my buddies! weehoo! and Killers sounds good too. with Ashton Kutcher in it, I cant hold myself from getting queued for the tickets. :)

while thursday might be a real blast for me, Friday seems to be oppositely frightening. Rumours say my result for the semester will be out! gosh, dont know what to expect from it, but at least, I'm praying not to get a heart attack when looking at the grades. huh

gtg people. tc!


shafura onn. 1.32 am, 1/6/10. bandar baru UDA, johor bahru.

just blah.

While writing this out, my heart seems to be in mess. I have uncertainties, I’m very much confused.

You, who texted me about an hour ago, could you please leave the situation as it is now?

I know and am very well aware that you’ve done good things to me, you did sacrifice for me, and no doubt you once taught me what happiness was all about. But I’ve moved on since you last appeared months ago. And I know that’s the best for me since “being us” is a big NO-NO. Thus, I’m begging you to really take your steps away from me. Stop appearing in front of me or stay invisible if you can coz I don’t want to hear from you and I really don’t want to see you any longer. Please, get it.

I'm not hating you but you're making things harder for me, haven’t u realised that?



shafura onn. 2.17 am, 9/5/10. bandar baru UDA, johor bahru.

top 5!

I’m updating my favourites from time to time. Here are those for now:


1. Cristiano Ronaldo.
Oh god, I can’t get this hell out of my head since I first noticed him 4 years back. And even though he has left MU for Real Madrid, I still like him. At first, I thought I’d hate him if he’s no longer a Red Devil, unfortunately, I was wrong. This may sound crazy but he’s my first celebrity crush, I mean the official one. Looking at how well he is now at Santiago Bernabeu, I bet he’s happy with life he’s having for the moment. Its about a month to go for World Cup 2010 and I’m very anxious to see him back on Portugal International Team. Hopefully, he’ll do wonders.

2. Remy Ishak
I never meet him yet but I personally think he’s hot. Haha ;P I started to like him since he played Adam in Nur Kasih series.

3. Casey James
It has been my habit to adore at least one in a competition or battle. If not, I might not watch the screening. This time around, I love CJ from the American Idol season 9. Physically, he’s got what it takes to be the next nerve-breaking persona- voice, looks, aura, style and what not. Thus, I wish I’ll see him on finals this year.

4. B-Boy Juicy
Ok. I cant say much about this guy. I just watched Showdown 2010- it’s a reality tv show on break-dancing, roughly its all about basics, skills, choreography and team work on that particular art. And this dude is from Giller Battle Crew of the show. I’m not sure if I’m more attracted to bad-looking, no, I’d say naughty-faced guys compared to more or less like David-Archuleta-kind-of-boy, but it seems I’ve fallen for some whom I found out via shows on tv. In reality, I guess, hmmm, not yet determined.

5. A****
This is more to reality as above is the name of my crush right now. Haha ;P as far as I’m concerned, he’s studying in the same uni as mine (but he’s not my college-mate), tall, dark, bald, but I’d say he has everything a man should be possessing. Anyhow, like I used to be doing, I kind of admiring him from far since we both aren’t friends. So yeah, just let the time do the verdict.


shafura onn. 3.40 pm, 5/5/10. bandar baru UDA, johor bahru.

2nd yr, stop!

yesterday marked a stop to my 2nd-yr journey in UKM. and of course, I was overwhelmed to the fact that I'll be entering my final yr next sem! omg, time flies damn so fast. I was packing my things when I saw a temporary student card which was used during my orientation week last 24 months. the nerdy innocent face of mine was clearly portrayed on that. oh, I cant hold my laughs anymore! haha

nevertheless, despite being extremely ecstatic and anxious of becoming a final-year student, deep inside, I personally think that my period of enjoying my days has also officially ended by now. I didnt play much during my first two semesters here as I was still adapting to new environment, new friends and what not. as for next 270 days starting early July this yr, there's no time for lepak-ing in the malls or going nuts while watching EPL anymore coz doing thesis can really pull ur hair upwards and I bet I'll be on the go all the time. It may sound like a white lie coz of course, I personally am unable to resist doing those two, but like I've been told earlier by some lecturers and seniors, thesis-making is so very complicated. thus, I guess my time for other less necessary things will be limited.

I've done 70% of clearing my stuff out of the closet and I'll be in my hometown, InsyaAllah by tomorrow. it has been a while since I last met my sisters and I really miss them. and I miss everything in jb- home, ma, abah, tokyem, toknah, food and even my topsy-turvy room! the messiness in there makes my heart grows even fonder. haha :D

oh god! I just found out about a second ago that my crush has chopped down his hair! he is now bald! I repeat, BALD! waaaa, I cant imagine! and I dont want to! haha


shafura onn. 2.59 pm, 28/4/10. kolej ungku omar,ukm,bangi

awesome!

now its down to two more exams! wootwoot! i'm very much anxious for some breaks and eventually my holidays will kick its butt starting from 27th evening onwards. 1-week-exam-gap makes me lazy, as it triggers my mood of watching dramas all over again, plus, searching for gossips and what not. time flies like flash and suddenly, I'm on weekends! I was supposed to yell "weeehoooo" but unfortunately, weekends dont give any meaning if u just stay in ur room, looking at the disastrous notes, as the next exam will be on Monday. Can Monday be more likeable?

anyhow, it seems like I cant enjoy much of my 3-month-off-books period as I'll have to go to Pahang, again. but this time around, its not for fieldwork, but its for my thesis. yes, u guys arent reading any wrong. As I'll be entering my final yr next term, I'd have to start collecting data for the thesis. therefore, I'll be in Pahang for a fortnight, if things go well. if not, I'll ought to stay there longer. but nevermind, the place promises me a beach, so I guess starfishes will be my friends soon. :)

I have to stop now. the books are calling like hell. toodles people!

btw, MU won their third last match over Tottenham, 3-1! weehooo! chels, u better be careful. :P


shafura onn. 9.37 pm, 24/4/10. kolej ungku omar,ukm,bangi

what?

these are what I've been feeling for recent days:

1. insecure
2. sad
3. hatred
4. uneasy
5. what? pehal lu nak sibuk?

bak kata nidji, roda memang sudah berputar. I'm now believing in that. I really do.


shafura onn. 10.37 pm, 21/4/10. kolej burhanuddin helmi,ukm,bangi.

JGS

it has been days since I last shitted on the previous post. life's good, and it couldnt be any greater. since my next two papers will be on another week, I guess its time for me to unwind a bit. alahaiii, cakap macam study banyak jek. did u forget that u slept for 12 hours last night? ;P

these are things I've been thinking/doing for the past 8 days:

1. I've been watching U'RE BEAUTIFUL like timesss. and I even memorized the scripts. not all, but only those I love hearing. :)

2. I've fallen in love, no, I guess its still early, thus I decided to put them only on my crush list. they're Jang Geuk Suk, Nicholas Hoult and Yoann Gourcuff. the 1st heart-melter is a Korean actor (oh I love looking at his angry face!), the 2nd hunk is an actor from 'The Clash of the Titans' and the last one is a footballer for France National Team. I guess I'd be voting for Portugal (Ronaldo in there) and France too for World Cup 2010, due to this new discovery of Mars creature.

3. I've downloaded songs as well as lyrics sang by JGS. as its written in Korean language, my tongue seems to meet my teeth everytime I try to sing along winamp. :-D

4. I've decided I'll do what I ought to do. when the right time comes, I'll definitely give it a shot. I must.

5. I dreamt of my used-to-be crush. he was beaten by culprits from my U. it didnt make any sense, did it? and to those who can actually rise meanings out of this dream plz shout out your comments ya. ;P





shafura onn. 2.46 am, 19/4/10. ukm,bangi.