self indulgence

Usah tertipu dengan tajuk Bahasa Inggeris di atas kerana buat julung-julung kalinya, saya akan memblog dalam Bahasa Melayu indah.

Saya telah membuat keputusan untuk mewar-warkan kelemahan saya selama saya hidup hampir 21 tahun. Antaranya ialah:

a) Saya masih tidak reti menyelesaikan masalah pembezaan matematik dan juga kamirannya.

b) Saya tidak boleh memakan buah jambu batu, bukan kerana alahan, tetapi memang tidak tergigit oleh gigi mahupun tertelan dek tekak.

c) Saya tidak menyukai sos/ sambal dan sifat-sifatnya.

d) Saya sukar mengingati sistem peredaran darah walaupun sudah hampir 10 kali mempelajarinya, sejak zaman sekolah menengah, matrikulasi dan universiti.

e) Saya tidak memakan ulam-ulaman dan banyak lagi sayuran yang lain.

f) Kepelbagaian biologi adalah antara topik bio yang paling susah buat saya untuk menghafalnya.

g) Saya amat tidak menyukai subjek fizik dan geografi, dan hal ini menyebabkan saya sukar mempelajari kedua-duanya.

h) Saya boleh memaafkan kesalahan orang lain tetapi amat sukar melupakan perbuatan mereka.

i) Saya boros.

j) Saya rasa kurang selesa bertudung putih.

k) Saya kurang arif mengenai matematik tambahan.

l) Saya tidak boleh membaca akhbar/majalah ketika berada di dalam kenderaan yang sedang bergerak. Jika saya melakukan sedemikian, saya akan berasa pening dan mungkin juga muntah.

m) Saya suka pada kopi dan terbitannya.

n) Saya tidak tahan makanan yang pedas.

o) Selalunya, saya hanya membaca ruangan gossip dan sukan pada akhbar.

p) Saya mudah mendapat flu dan ulser pada mulut. Kekurangan air dalam badan barangkali.

q) Saya mudah berasa sejuk dan saya tidak berapa suka pada kawasan yang berhawa dingin.

r) Saya takut pada lipas.

s) Saya berasa gerun untuk memandu semula selepas hampir 4 tahun tidak memegang stereng.

t) Saya tidak menyukai soya dan keju yang bukan berada di dalam makanan.

u) Saya suka memerhatikan orang lain. Jadi, AWAS kalian. haha ;P


Kelemahan-kelemahan inilah yang membezakan kita antara manusia. Oleh itu, saya tetap bersyukur dengan apa yang dianugerahkan olehNya.



yang benar,
shafura onn.

fieldwork. again??

---> crime: fieldwork in mersing, johor

for sure u guys know what i'll be shitting about in this post. tomorrow, no, another about 7 hrs, i'll be going to hutan..., u guys arent reading any wrong, yes, its hutan i'm going to for my hmmm, not sure, 3rd or 4th fieldwork. bosan weyh! seriously! its not just because its a FIELDWORK, meaning that we'll all be tanning our fair skin under the trees in the forest (sometimes we do feel like filming the episodes of LOST), but also due to the fact that its still a holiday for the rest of students in all over Malaysia (exception for those who give votes on hiking or camping or whatever). yeah, i know some people do hope they can go somewhere out of campus during learning years, but come on, its a holiday. and since this term is a short one, we all NEED our days off. its a NECESSITY, ok? it'd be extremely awesome if i can enjoy my days in front of the home tv, on a couch, with chips and chocs all around my fingers.

anyhow, despite being trashed from my old fieldwork group (lecturer punye keje), i do personally hope for success in every task i'll be asking for. and also, since we'll all be camping, meaning that we'll all be occupied in small tents, i pray for my safetiness in the sense that no legs on my face or body during sleeping time. ;P


---> crime: fieldwork in tasik chini, pahang




fieldworker,
shafura onn.

into celebs

Due to too many celebrities exposures which resulted from nowadays techno world, I end up crushing on some on-the-main-stream entertainment people. I find them perfect ( only from naked eyes ) coz they must hv some flaws, dont they?


1. the ultimate crush- it has been 4 yrs of liking him, and the counting hasnt reached the end yet.


---> CRISTIANO RONALDO DOS SANTOS AVEIRO


2. recent indulgement- current addiction which has succeeded in making me stay in front of the lappy for almost straight 11hrs.


---> KIM HYUN JOONG

3. i'm not being bias ( only to like mars creatures above ) or lesbian ( to love those at the remaining page of my post ). its just that i find them exquisite and gorgeous as they prove women are from venus. :P

i dont quite remember how i discovered her from the industry, but i was so blown away with her quintessential beauty the next minute of looking at her images.


---> MEGAN FOX

i started admiring her via the series of onetreehill, in which she played brooke davis. she was and is getting even hotter, even after she got divorced from chad michael murray for only 5 months of marriage.


---> SOPHIA BUSH

this fellow. i know she's quite something, frankly speaking, naughty. but at least, she's being herself. i dont care how many times people see her for court cases or how many scandals she possessed. wouldnt it be good to hv choices? haha ;P


---> FAZURA


no, its not what u're thinking. i'm not going to be an actress or a footballer or even a singer. to love doesnt mean to do. coz we cant do what we love all the time.

one left, i do gv my vote for HEIDI KLUM. ok. mls da nk letak gmbr and craps. tak tak. i dont wanna be a model. x deserve. haha ;P



celebs fan,
shafura onn.

i cant think what the title shud be

i once asked my buddy," how did u manage to make ur own wake-up call without being pushed by others? u urself did it. i mean how could u be so sure about terminating ur relationship with ur bf (now ex-bf) though u know it aint gonna be easy as abc as it has been a year plus companion? ". she answered, " i remembered every single hurt he made to me. there's never been give and take, and i was the one who gave in all the time. i got tired and there's a limit to everything. it was when i couldnt take it any longer. thats it. thats really it. i called our relationship a day ever since then."

conveying the same message as the above situation, BOF ( i'm not promoting it just because i've been hypnotized by KHJ ), gives me a similar lesson which goes this way - one thing i ought to do by now, is to exactly know what i really want/say out of something or to fight for my needs for instance, a relationship ( whether to choose friends or partner ). or how to ignore destructive unnecessary comments from people i hate. it'd be good too if i can straight away smash those culprits with harsh words.

for the time being, i'm on efforts to avoid from indulging myself towards no-nonsense stuff. instead of being a risk-taker, i prefer not to give a shot on uncertain things. i know there's always a sunshine in every fall, but its a real pleasure to be able to be in my own comfort zone cause i'll never know when it'll be ended. instead of being a problem-seeker just to satisfy own's curiosity and some people say, necessity, it'd be awesome if i left the future to Him. of course He knows the best in every creature He created. thats what i'm gonna do now - FTF.


FTF stands for followtheflow.



future better person,
shafura onn.

oh my bf! ;P

ok. it has been ages since I last updated this blog, ok, I lie. not ages, months shud be more likeable. frankly speaking, i hv soooo much to pen on, bt time limits me. bundles of works need to be done on time, even if its not, they do hv dateline of which the most significant thing that indicates what a work is. if not, will it be termed 'work'?

out of numerous topics to give a shot on, this time around, the award goes to the most recent addiction i had for already couples of weeks. that is KIM HYUN JOONG aka JI-HOO in BOYS OVER FLOWERS episodes. I was totally blown away with his look and character in the storyline. he made me thinking of 'indahnya ciptaan Tuhan' once again after i had it when looking at cristiano ronaldo (when i was in f5) and ashraf the starbucks guy (last year).haha I really feel like booking a flight ticket to KOREA just to see him! crazy enuf! as if if i go there i'd be able to meet him je kan. *sigh*


---> un-official boyfriend, KHJ.

I full-heartedly think that the craziness i encountered when i first had a celebrity crush on ronaldo has repeated, but now towards KHJ. I've downloaded his songs (w/pun x phm) and pics, and I watched his videos like times. and I even changed my msg tone to the song sang by his boyband. sangatla sengal. tp sp sroh dye cute and gentleman sgt, though dlm BOF je. haha ;P

gtg now. better things waiting in line. adios people. :D

now playing---> KHJ, A THING CALLED HAPPINESS



lol,
shafura onn.

time tells it all

I’m still learning to really understand myself- how I’d react to conditions and situations, how I’d manipulate things, how I’d define problems, causes and consequences…u know, stuff like that. The more I try, the more complicated a thing sometimes be. And most of the time, u just cant figure matters out when they popped in seconds. You would be wishing…if only I did that, if only it turned out to be slightly better, if only this and that. And all u need is time to get things down to the roots and it is when you really believe that u subjected to life. Not the other way round.

As for myself, several times I realised that I overanalysed things. A simple one would turn out messy, and a big one would become a headache. And to be worst, I always drive a matter to my pathway of negative thoughts. Until someone wakes me up. And most of the time too, I just need maybe 10 mins to get myself back to neutral, no more or less, having positive thinking back on track. There are like some arguments running inside of me, emotionally, physically and what not. And if that’s the way of me understanding myself, I couldn’t be more grateful. Coz if that’s what God has created for me, I know its for the best in me as His servant.

I cant successfully describe what type of person I am, though I’ve lived for already 2 decades now. Coz for the last couple of yrs, I was alarmed if I couldn’t stand a person for a long time. This never happens on best buddies (as for now) but occasionally, this happens on friends. Initially, everything is so damn good- we do things together, we laugh, we ride on bikes, we share stories and problems…we do things that friends would do together. But after some time, I’d find myself suffocated with him/her. Stuff that we enjoyed doing has become a boring one and what I’d do is to avoid that person. I’m pretty well aware that he/she isn’t at any fault, but I’m very much suffocated with everything. As far as I can remember, there’re 4 persons I feel guilty on. I just need some time off. That’s all. I wouldn’t call our friendship a day coz u guys have been so helpful to me. Really.

Maybe, I’m a type of God’s creature that needs challenges in relationships. Maybe I cant stand something that is alright all day long. I need ups and downs (but I prefer ups more frequent) getting to know someone so that I always have new chapter to learn about that particular person. I rarely can stand having no tongue-tied or quarrels in a relationship. Coz when everything seems ok from our naked eyes as we intended to hide real feelings of matters just to get along well with a person, we are actually lying to ourselves and sooner or later, a boredom would definitely strike.

I have always believed that doubting people is a part of trying to know them and trust is actually giving up on trying to understand other. That’s the reason why I don’t fully trust a person coz behind every lies and secrets, there’s always something to learn about, regardless of who’s wrong. It is the time when u add knowledge about yourself and others. It is when you define things in life. It is when you actually grow up upon time.



lol,
shafura onn

Awesome Aussie !

It has been nearly a month since Lala’s solemnization as well as wedding and couple of days since my trip to Sydney and Perth, Australia. Both were really fun and awesome and incredible! There’s no word that can really describe the entire situation of those two memorable events of the year for my family.

We took a flight from Singapore and headed to Perth. We arrived there at almost 1 in the morning and the shops in the airport were still closed (the shops will close and open as early as 5pm and 3am). But luckily they have free internet surfing there so I decided to check my emails as well as facebook. At about 5, we boarded to Sydney and the journey took about 4 hours. Can u imagine how big Australia is? Going from a state to another state by flight needs 4 hours. My math isn’t that good to calculate total hours needed for a whole country visit. :P

Though the holidays in aussie just took a few days, not even a week, but the experience is terrific! The Australians are very friendly (even the butcher says hi to me) and the weather is cold (tho now is summer) coz the wind blows way too strong. But its humidity is quite low (we had dry lips there). We found several halal restaurants as we stayed in Randwick . It is such a beautiful outstanding city where u can easily find eye-shoring beaches just near the walking roads.

The beaches are hardly describable. The water is so green and some of the beaches blue, and the sandy part which may be called intertidal zone of the sea is so great! There’s no rubbish or whatsoever lying on the sand or grass on land. U can hardly see even a plastic bag being swept away by the winds or waves. Not at all. Summer enables people in there to go surfing though the waves are pretty strong (now I believe what they show on tv and movies). We enjoyed looking at how they spend their time on sports. Even a pregnant woman goes swimming. Men would be shirtless regardless of whether they’re walking or cycling, and both genders prefer to be on ground bare-footed as many houses located nearby and they are extremely big, just like the sum of money needed to buy them. The houses can reach up to AU$ 6 MILL DOLLARS! (to convert to Malaysian ringgit, pls times 3.19)

And regardless of time, Australians do jog anywhere anytime they want. I once witnessed a woman jogging while pushing a stroller with a baby in it. I bet Gisele Bundchen would have green eyes looking at the woman’s body. Haha :P

Another thing that differs them from us is they prefer walking instead of to be on wheels. They even walk at night as if their country is very safe that they hardly find a pickpocket or beg-snatcher and thieves. U can see fearless faces of the people. And I didn’t get to see people drunk on streets. Maybe they just get drunk in bars. :P

We had our time shopping at Paddy’s market purchasing cheaper things compared to other stores. Therefore, there were sooo many people loitering around and u can easily get lost coz the place is very enormous. We also visited Sydney Wildlife World to see all types of aquatic animals ranging from sharks to crustaceans, and wildlife creatures like alligators, kangaroos and koalas (the koalas are very lazy and they enjoy sleeping on trees no matter how many people staring and teasing them). The place also provides the most dangerous species of spiders and snakes and these experiences are very useful to me as I’m a future biologist (Insyaallah) coz I get to see them with my naked eyes. How wonderful. :D

We went to Queen Victoria’s Building (shopping mall) as well as the streets nearby. We also marked our footsteps on The Rocks, Sydney Harbour and the landmark of Australia, a bridge called…(I forget the name of it). Haha :D

Australia is an awesome country and I’m very grateful to be able to witness other different creatures of Allah. But my love still goes to my first-greeted origin, Malaysia. It is true that people say “ there’s no place like home “. And I’m grateful too to be Malaysian. 



lol,
shafura onn